hmmm [16 Jul 2006|11:34pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | dandy warhols// i am sound ] so here i am. sitting in my house wasting away and yet i am content. i realize that i am who i am and i cannot pretend if i want to stay tru to myslef. however do i want to stay tru to myslef? its just so much fun pretending to b who ever the hell i wanna b. lets stop think and get sum more action around here!! <3 post comment

live journal is so 12 months ago... [07 May 2006|05:14pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | something corporate- have u seen jordan?? ] what is with everyone and fucking myspace??? what the hell is so great about it? and this live jouranl thing... what the hell is the point of having one of these things? i havent written in mine for sooooo long. well here i am. what would u like me to do? spill my heart out for u or tell u about my day and then make a dumb joke about it when im done? our generation is too strung up on the internet... i love it. ;) <3 post comment

Hey party ppl!! [26 Aug 2005|09:09am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | the cure ] its good 2 b back!!! i jsut got my sceudule (spelled wrong) so comment if u have any classes w/ me cuz im scared 2 b alone... save me... 1. spanish 2 w/ blanck 2.photo 1 w/ hewitson 3.intro 2 bio w/ clarck 4.acc. english 10 w/ webster 5.gemotry w/ bieske 6.ap us history w/ diegel so help me out and tell me that ur in all my classes cuz making friends isnt one of my high points :(   ♥sunny post comment

Wud Up Punks???? [14 Jun 2005|01:48pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Dropkick Murphys ] Hey guyz. i haven't updated this in a long time so sry 4 that. nothing interesting has really happened. nothing interesting is happening now actully. yeah so we started finals today which means that there is only 2 more days of shcool left!! heck yes!! i am soo pumped, i am so sick of fhs. cant wait to get out. i girl can dream cant she???lol. k yeah well thats pretty much it. ♥sunny post comment

MAYRYZ EYEZ ROCKS MY SOX!! [21 May 2005|10:10pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | hellogoodbye ] O-LY CRAP!!!yesterday was the maryz eyez concert @ FHS and i had the most k.a. time EVA!! thank u soo much courtny, cuz that concert brought me outta the biggest slump ever!!! I bought a white maryz eyez t (im sorry amie, make love not war)lol. it was soo funny, i wanted to mosh so amie threw me in and i fell down and lost a shoe. that was when the concert started to REALLY get fun. so the drummer threw his drumsticks into the crowd and i cought one. i had him sign it after the show, and guess what? he hugged me twice! one sweaty one, and then one after he changed his shrit. he is soo effing hot!! and @ the end of the show, they brought courtney up to the stage and sang with her. it was a friggin good time. lol. yeah so 2day i went to Great Lakes Crossing mall, and i got to drive there. the high way was sooo much fun. i love to go fast. it makes my day!!i almost got hit by a truck 2 times tho. once on the way there and then on the way back. it knida freaked me out, but w/e. it was actully pretty funny. @ GLC i bought an underoath shirt which i am soo pumped about, and the LETTER KILLS cd. sha-weet!! my lyf is lyk so much better because of it. lol. good times, good times. well i g2g! love ya, sunny post comment

What have I become??? [07 May 2005|07:29pm] [ mood | intimidated ] [ music | Funeral for a Friend ] holy crap! I'm getting so fat that i feel like i wheigh a thousand pounds. I hate summer! Today work was so terrible! some lady came back an hour and a half later after i rung her up and told me that i gave her the wrong change and i didnt know what to do. me and katie called the owners and we had to close the store so that we could count the money in the drawer but we werent missing over or under. So i think that i rung her up wrong but everyone told me not to wory about it, that it wasnt my fault, but it was!!!! I feel like such a horrible person. So the rest of my shift i was so freaked out that i was super careful, but i still messed up alot, and right it front of my boss. Then they found out that i wasnt weighing my items so it was like i was giving away food for free. I was so bummed. I cant belive that i didnt get fired today. So after that emotionaly scaring event, i came home and ate, and ate, and ate, and ate. I feel so fat, but food is the only thing that makes me feel okay, even though it really dosent cause it makes me feel huge. I feel like an effing boat. I just wanna go sum where and die. not really, but im getting there. Im a horrible person and i should just be ignored so that i dont cause any more trouble. Just leave me alone and let me get fat in peace... -Not so sunshiney post comment

Blah [02 Apr 2005|03:01pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | underoath ] i feel so blah. i've been cleaning ALL day. i woke up at 9:45, yes in the moring, and started to clean. im tired and kinda bitchy since i dont even like the ppl that my mom has invited over for this dinner party. to make matters worse, the power is out in my room, and in the half of the living room that the tvs pluged into. how did that happen? beats the fuck outta me. well g2g die now. later. sunny post comment

Geez! [04 Mar 2005|09:05pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | boxcar racer ] dude i've been doin ART hw for the past hour. yup, u heard me right, art. no im not painting or drawing, im researching. it sux so bad. lyk who fucking cares where Henri Matisse freakin lived when he was alive. hes dead now so... jsut sayin. yeah i feel realy bad cuz i cant go to mollys soccer game on sunday, and its her last one and i still havent been to one. (im SOOOOOOOO sry molly!!!) yeah well, i guess that pretty much sums up my super-cool day;). lol. love ya, sunshine post comment

ARGHH! [03 Mar 2005|01:14pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | bare-naked-ladies ] geez, its a half day and my dad is off, so he was supposed to take me driving today, but hes asleep and i dont wanna wake him up, but hes already wasted a good couple of hours because he wont wake up. its funny cuz im being so loud too. im getting annoyed and frustrated, i wish that i could just take the car myslef and go. WAKE UP!!! -sunny post comment

feeling down and thoughtful [26 Feb 2005|08:33pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | garbage ] so yesterday i went 2 chris's house. me, her, and courtney had a blink memorial/ remembrance (NOT A FUNERAL COURTNEY!!!)lol. we watched the uretha chronicals 1 and 2, and riding in vans w/ boys. it was so sad, when adams song came on i cried. i felt so stupid, but i loved them and im still in denial. so after i came home i put on adams song on repeat, and jack came into my head. its been almost a month, i think, since ive seen her. so i picked up the phone and called her. i felt so stupid. i got her voice mail on her cell. i feel so abandond by every one. im mad at the world and im affraid that im becoming a bitch. im happy 4 jack, at least shes happy, but god i miss her. and blink has left me, but what can u do about that? i feel so, i dunno. i dont even no what i feel. im such a loser. im gonna spare u and stop writing now. -not feeling so sunny post comment

Ha Ha [24 Feb 2005|04:07pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | blink 182 (im still mourning) ] omg, im reading courtney's journal and its so funny. courtny ur so cool. iv got a shit load of hw to do and if id ont finish it i dont get 2 drive. :( well g2g!! love ya, sunshine post comment

Still Having Trouble Accpeting It... [23 Feb 2005|07:14pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | blink 182 ] Im still having trouble accpeting that blink is "taking a break" but im gonna b okay (i hope) everything sucked 2day. my body is being crushed under all my hw, and my heart is being crushed by everyones bad news. i cant stand this day anymore, it needs to end. I just sat in my room all day and listened to blink and did my hw. on the brightside i finally got my permit today. that was the only good thing about this whole day. i found out that my friend (not gonna mention any names) cuts her self, and that made me so sad cuz she thinks that she needs a boy to make her happy. not having a boyfriend is not the end of the world!!!! i wish that she could hear how stupid she sounds when she talks. i hate it cuz shes such a cool chick. every1 gave me hw today, and my acc. english 10 porfolio was due, it sucked so bad, (thanx molly for the informational piece, it was probabaly the only good thing in my whole portfolio, lol) im so over today, i cant wait till its over and i dont have to think about this anymore. Jackie, i miss u soooooo much!!!!! blink, i miss u soooo much!!! y has everyone abandoned me?!?!?!?!?!?!?! well g2g try and figure out my math hw, bye. -sunshine :( post comment

Blink Is Gone? [22 Feb 2005|07:28pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | matchbook romance ] omg. blink is gone. everyone is gone. theres nothing to live for anymore. i cant breathe, i cant think, i cant talk. blink is gone???? its so sudden. y??? omg y? how could u just leave? PLEASE, DONT LEAVE ME!!! STAY TOGETHER FOR THE KIDS!!!!!! i think im having a heart attack. i cant stop crying and i havent cryed since 5th grade. omg. omg. omg. blink is gone, nothing to live for, im dying... post comment

Who Cares? [21 Feb 2005|02:28pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | the cure ] yesterday i painted my nails black and my rents freaked out. whats the big deal anyways? they're so worried that im gonna b labled and that people r gonna think that im weird. if i dont care, y do they? i mean society has come so far so that its not important what people think about u, and here r my parents telling me that i cant go to school with black nail polish on because they're affraid of what people will think. its just stupid, u know? whats really weird about the whole thing is that this isnt the first time that i've painted my nails black, or gone to shcool with black nail polish on. y r they so concerned now? i dont understand parents. no one at shcool cares anyways. half of my friends have their nails painted black. i mean if they're going to worry then they should worry about something really bad, like peircings or tatoos or something. Its not like ive jumped off the deep end. just saying... -later love ya, sunshine post comment

SO BORED!!!!! [20 Feb 2005|03:27pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | blink 182 ] holy shit!!! nothing ever happens around here, and i cant even go out cuz my rents r out. im sooo bored. im dying!!!! i was supposed to work today, but they canceled my shift cuz it was snowing. i think that im gonna quit in june and find another job when i get back from vacation. i cant wait till summer!!! its gonna b soo great. damn it, when im bored i get hungry and now i feel so hungry but theres not even anything good to eat in this house!!! i cant stand this place anymore!!! i need to get out!!!! love ya, sunshine P.S. my dad is finally taking me 2 get my permit 2morrow. yay!! post comment

Over Worked and Under Paid [19 Feb 2005|06:42pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | the used ] So i work at this ice cream place called TCBY. i came into work today excpecting it to be really slow cuz it was cold and shit. i was soooo wrong. this group of girls in sum club or sum thing all come to our place to order stuff. there were lyk 50 of um. so imagine that on top them, a whole nother shit load of other people that werent with them. so me and the chick that i was working with, alicia, were trying to serve all these people when this guy comes up and asks for an ice cream cake. so i show him all the cakes and he asks me to write "happy birthday kim" on one. so i say okay, how hard could it be right? wrong. it was terrible. neither me or alicia had ever written on cakes before, so we're trying and me and her are swiching off back and fourth trying to help people and write this damn message. so the guy waiting for the cake looks so worried cuz we're covered in frosting and we keep calling each other back to look at it. let me tell you, it looked like a piece of shit after we got through with it. so in the end, we put and edible image on it that covered up all of our handy work and gave it to the guy. it looked decent in the end (thank god). so we gave him a 2 dollar off discount and that was the end of him. so we finally finish serving this mob of people and i see this guy just standing there at the counter. so im lyk "can i help u?" and he tells me that another girl went to go get him a cup for the coffee that he ordered, but she never came back. so he's already pissed and i come back and tell him that we're out of cups. so he goes out into his car and gets his own cup and fills that with coffee and leaves. so i finally get a chance to go into the back and rest when i see that alicia has spilled OSB juice all over the ground. i mean its everywhere. so we mop and clean everything which takes forever, and after we're all done the floor is still so sticky that if you stand in one place for to long that ur shoe will b permantley stuck to that spot and ur foot will come up w/o ur shoe. great huh? and after all of that we didnt even get any tips, not even a quarter. people piss me off. im exhausted. well g2g, more on lyf later. love ya, sunshine P.S. I really do love alicia tho, shes a great chick. :) post comment

No more Mr Shitty!!!!! [18 Feb 2005|12:25pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | boxcar racer ] Yay!!! I finished segment 1 of drivers ed today!!!!! The driving instructor was such a dick. he was soooo nasty. he absoultly hated me- i kid you not. today i drove so bad jsut to scare him. It will probabaly come back to bite me in the ass, but it was so worthit!!! let me describe this piece of shit 2 u: he spits when he talks, always is running his hands through his hair and itching his head (which makes the nastiest sound) he is always drinking sum thing (what we never know) he talks really quiet unless he's yelling at u 4 sum thing, he acts lyk he's god, he's old and his face is sagging, and he wears those aviator glasses. A warning 2 neyone who is bout to start drivers ed- dont go 2 sears driving school!!!!!!!!! u will regret it. I know i did. Well thank god that experice is over. Yay!!! if my dad isnt tired 2nite, he's gonna take me to the secretary of state and im gonna get my permitt!!!! YES!!! I feel lyk dancing (not that i already havent)No more mr shitty! no more mr shitty! lyf is good. well talk to ya later!!! love ya, sunnshine xoxoxoxoxoxoxox post comment

Hello New Friends!!!! [17 Feb 2005|04:31pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | matchbook romance ] Hi-lo! 2day i finally went back 2 skool after being sick 4 a week. it was horrible!!!! spanish sux ass!!! my math teacher mrs whore, sry moore, gave me so much hw that i cant even lift it all. 1 thing 2 say 2 her- up urs blondie!!!!geez that felt pretty good. honestly tho, im really a nice person 2 b around when im not drowning in skool, or my own snot. I cant even laugh w/o haking out a lung. yea so more on lyf later. post comment

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